To Mom

Mom,
I don't know what to say to you these days cause you're never around. I wish you were here right now but I know I wouldn't tell you how I feel even then. I have wrote you so many letters when you're out late but I never give them to you. The night that Lisa died I didn't even bother to call you and I don't know why I always call you. I just wasn't thinking anything might happen. Maybe if I had called you then Lisa wouldn't be dead right now. I try to erase the pain from my mind but it just comes back. I find myself thinking of her even though I try not to but that seems to make it more present in my thoughts. She did a lot of things I didn't like but I still loved her. I pray that she is now in a better place. I pray for you everyday cause I know that you think that it is your fault. I think that if Lisa hadn't died and she still got out of your car that night she wouldn't be mad. You were only doing what she wanted you to do. Please don't think its your fault. If it had been you I don't know what I would do. It would break my heart and I don't think I would ever be the same again. I lvoe you with all my heart.
Love Always & Forever,
Kristen