father-daughter relationship

My dad and I have had a rocky relationship since I was fifteen. I know he still doesn't trust me but I really wish he would. I've changed so much since then. I just want the relationship every girl wants with her dad. I know that if a guy was ever bad to me my dad would drop him like a sack of bricks, but I want him to show me how much he loves me. I feel like I don't hear it enough from him. I guess that's why I had sex with the first guy that ever showed me that love I wanted from a man. I just want my daddy. God I feel like a big baby cause I'm actually about to start crying over this. I know my dad will never read this but I love you Dad!